Inspired by the Christmas spirit?
Updated: Dec 12, 2018
Hello, I’m Carley. This is my first blog post. …what do I say? WHATEVER I WANT?
Right now, I’m sitting in what feels like a dream state. I just got engaged 3 days ago. I KNOW. It still doesn’t real to me. Last night was my first night away from my fiancé, which was sad, but I had a queen sized bed all to myself so that’s the only time I’ll refer to the situation as sad. That bed was a literal cloud. I was away because I had an audition at a theatre in St. Petersburg.
Segue to audition:
I’ve never felt so confident during an audition. It was my first audition since I became engaged (which definitely has everything to do with it) and I felt like I could conquer the world. It’s amazing to look down at my pretty little ring (AKA my most prized possession now) and feel like I could do anything. I could…trip while walking in, crack during my song, forget my words, sneeze in the middle. I could completely TANK this audition. But it wouldn’t even matter to me because at the end of the day I get to go home to the love of my life. No matter what, I know he’ll support me. That feeling is just…wooooowwwww. I’ll probably tell him this and he’ll say something along the lines of “Okay, but I don’t want you to tank auditions.” My main point in saying this is that I know I’m going to have good days and bad days and I’m so excited to share them all with my now fiancé. If I have taught you anything, find you an S/O that will love you and support you and be right by your side as you chase your crazy dream! Don’t forget to be by them while they’re running towards theirs. Side-note: you should definitely be taking life advice from me, because I’ve been engaged for 3 days now so I’m an expert.
Thankfully, I’m surrounded by it. If you’re a human reading this: pay attention. (Now, I will say it’s not always like this. But I’m on Cloud 9 right now and I will be for a while, so let’s focus on the positive together.)
This morning at my audition there was this adorable kid behind me in line whose mom kept saying, “Just be yourself, remember to take deep breaths, no matter what happens…no you’ll do great no matter what.” Now, I love a good pep talk but this mom was starting to make ME nervous. (You could tell it was just the mom who was nervous. Pretty sweet.) I stepped in because hell, I needed a pep talk too. I started asking the girl what she was singing, what role she wanted. She started talking to me about how she was so passionate about theatre and wanted to do this for the rest of her life. After some more small talk the mom asked me if it’s hard. (haHA) I promptly said yes, because let’s face it, it is! I told her how the support of my parents and fiancé (shameless plug to flash my ring) has made the worlds difference for me.
I don’t know how long I could last in this crazy bizz without their undying support. Every audition I have, I get a text from my mom the morning of. I’ll call my parents after each one. I call my fiancé after each one. (Sometimes I’ll wait a little bit if the audition wasn’t too hot) They’ll always ask me, have you heard? How do you feel? I know I’m one of the lucky ones.
Then, I met up with a friend for lunch. Hawkers, FTW. She lives in NY so we were talking about my upcoming trip. I was telling her how grateful I am to have such great friends who are going to let me crash on their couches for a couple days so I can afford my stay. (Shout out to my girls- you know who you are) Then she offered up her own place for me to stay. I can’t make this shit up. People can be great.
Note to self:
Never forget how selfless your friends are in your time of need. Always pay it forward. Don’t keep track of the IOUs, just be good and be there for people.
I think I’m so focused on support because it’s easy. You don't have to try hard to be supportive of your peers. Like I said, I know I’m one of the lucky ones. Some people’s parents are dicks and don’t support their kid’s dream (don’t be like them). If you’re dealing with people like that, please tell me so I can gas you up before your next audition!! Another reason...because why NOT? Why wouldn’t you want your friends to do well? Why wouldn’t you help them when you can? Sure, this applies to actors, because we always need something. But this also applies to every person. (I was first introduced to this way of thinking from a friend of mine who says it’s all about support. Shout out to @pauljacksonlive & @victoriaelizabeth)
So, if you’re in need of a supportive friend…I got you, babe. Now go out into the world and as my Nana always says, “Be good and do good.”
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